Showing posts with label The Beat Within. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Beat Within. Show all posts

Sunday, October 24, 2021

25 Years of The Beat Within


The Beat Within Since 1996

Thankful to have the opportunity to reconnect with a program and publication that had the kind of impact on my trajectory towards being a part of education as a teacher. In the early 2000s, as I thought about what I would focus on after being selected for the Robert E. McNair Program at NMSU, I noticed a copy of The Beat Within amongst the scattered chaos of my undergrad studies on the living room floor. I had to meet a deadline for what I wanted to focus on when it came to continuing my education in the criminal justice field. That copy on the floor of The Beat Within magazine was the answer to what would matter most to me as a student of Hip Hop and a person that wanted to support and create platforms that allowed for more voices to be heard. At the time, I wasn't aware of how education would work it's way into what I wanted to do with my life. In my experience growing up in public education, during the formative years of my elementary and secondary life, what I wanted to be was far removed from ever working in a school. Looking back, it would take a bit more growing up and connections with teachers like Susie Castro Clark from high school and my 2nd grade teacher Mrs. Barkley for me to realize the kind of impact educators can have on students that aren't quite sure where they're headed. Over the years I'd see how the value of education didn't start or stop with a school building, but existed in those that raised us, the peers we connected with, and the experiences we attached ourselves to. When I started visiting youth at a local juvenile detention center, it was the young people there that helped me see how I could start to fulfill the responsibilities of an educator, a teacher, and a guide towards creative expression. The youth of Voices Behind Walls helped me see how in our own world out here in the Southwest, we could do our thing too and connect with our creative power to rhyme, write, and share our thoughts and stories. I'm honored to continue to have that chance to think about this experience through the pages of The Beat Within. 

In the 25th Anniversary issue, I got the chance to share a reflective piece titled Tupac Shakur & The Beat Within Legacy. The writing focuses on Tupac's mother, Afeni Shakur and a text she helped usher into the public's hands titled Tupac Shakur Legacy. Shout out to The Beat Within founder, David Inocencio, for the chance to share a space in The Beat Within publication for a monthly column I titled VBehindWColumn. I encourage everyone to please support The Beat Within. Spread the word about this publication and encourage your local juvenile justice systems to make the publication available to their youth and reach out to The Beat on ways that youth can share their stories and learn from the stories of others in this magazine. Online you'll find The Beat at: thebeatwithin.org and please see the Subscription info thebeatwithin.org/subscription.

Here's to the next 25 years.

check.

Mr. Lee

Thursday, March 26, 2020

The Beat Within 2020



The Beat Within 2020

Taking a moment to honor The Beat Within, a publication of art and writing from the inside...Here's to another year & all its challenges. Check them out at thebeatwithin.org.


Saturday, May 12, 2018

Why Do I Write? by CG The Beat Within

Why Do I Write?
by CG of The Beat Within
Corcoran State Prison (SHU)

It hasn’t always been easy for me to write, and I still struggle at it from time to time due to the fact that I confront so many feelings and emotions when I sit down and write from my heart and soul. For so many years I have struggled with this, ‘cause for so long I didn’t know what a heart and soul was, or what it meant. It’s the innermost sacred part of a human being. It’s the most precious gift a person can possess or share with someone else.

When I sit down and write, all defense mechanisms are shut down, and there’s no holding back — there’s no hiding anything from the person you are writing. Whatever you are doing with your creative skills, it must be done from the heart and the truth that lies inside; for it’s an intimate moment with yourself and the person (or cause) you’re sharing your heart with.

The only things we actually keep are those we give away. Sharing a piece of writing that comes from your heart is giving it away to someone who takes the time to read it. It means everything to me when someone takes time to read what I have to say or express. You know, for many years there wasn’t much that had any meaning to me besides faking to be the person that I thought others would want me to be. All I cared about was impressing others, doing whatever I had to, to earn their acceptance and praise. Living that life has kept me in the dark and from identifying and knowing the true person I am.

I’m 28 years old right now, and I didn’t even begin to know the true me until I decided to let the old me go completely. This started a few years ago to be exact. I discovered who I truly was through writing and by sharing with my family the truth about me by revealing to them the news of me having a personal relationship with my higher power. That’s how it began, and the more I wrote, the more I learned. And I must tell you: my life has been changing for the better ever since. Granted, I’m still in prison. I still have 15 years to do, but finally I’m able to get to know the real me. That has been a gift from up above.

I’ve lived a hard life, going from placement to placement, camp to camp, juvenile hall, CYA, now prison. I’ve been in prison for 10 years. I’m doing 25 years for robberies. A sad fact, but a fact nonetheless. I’m not proud of my past, and I can’t change what is already done; but I can surely change who I am today, and I am changing through writing, by sharing and expressing my emotions and thoughts on paper.

I lived my life the way I did because I was hiding from the person I truly was, and living my life for the person I thought I was. I should have been living my life for those who truly cared about me. I wish my past on no one, and I am lucky to have lived long enough to change. Some more worthy people are not as fortunate. May God bless their souls. Rest in peace.

Writing means a lot to me, for that’s how I began my searching and took a fearless moral inventory of myself. I discovered who I am. I found a lost little boy inside who was very happy to be rescued. That little boy has grown up some and has been through a lot of pain and hardships. All the assaults upon my life have truly made me stronger and have played a big part in forming the person I am today.

I’ve spent many days in pain and tears, sifting through all the demons that were within. I figured out a way to deliver myself from them, and that’s by writing down my feelings and thoughts. I’m finally discovering the person I’ve always wanted to be. It was hard to find it, and I had to let go of the old me.

One may ask, what does this have to do with me? Or, how does this apply to my life? Writing has enabled me to open up doors to people in ways I had never thought imaginable since those doors have never been open before. So, it hasn’t been easy. But then again, nothing with value in life comes easily. Everybody tries to be so perfect, and that causes us to hold back in fear of what another person may think.

Being able to open up and write has given me the courage to say on paper what I have failed to say in person, or simply never thought of saying at all. Being able to write and share my heart with someone is one of the greatest gifts I can ever offer. In doing so, I offer myself. Before, the true “me” was always beneath the so-called image of “I don’t care about anything” attitude, which was nothing but a mask of lies.

I don’t know how my writing has affected others, but I know how some writings have affected me. All the letters my family has written me I’ve kept, for that’s a piece of their heart and soul on that paper which no one can take from me. God forbid, if something ever happens to them, at least this way I’ll be able to cherish and absorb the love and affection they put forth in the form of a letter, which I will always have. Those letters mean a lot to me, because possibly one day that’s all I will have.

Being able to express myself in writing has worked a great change in my life. The last few years have  been years of self-transformation. I can honestly say that writing and sharing my inner self with others, I’ve probably saved my life. The chance to express my most inner feelings has brought out a part of me I never knew existed.

Writing won’t keep you from all trials in life, but it will for sure help you cope and give you strength to carry on. Facing life’s changes is never an easy task, but using your pen as your vessel can get you through the roughest of waters. Some of the simplest words have the greatest meaning. Sometimes when I write, I’m blown away that I have written such words, and have expressed such emotion.

The more I write, the more I learn about myself. The more I learn about myself, the more I get in touch with who I am. The more I know who I am, the more I’m able to change the flaws in me. The more I work on myself, a better person emerges.

Writing has changed my life. It has rebuilt bridges that were once burnt. It has touched other lives that ordinarily wouldn’t be touched. It’s given me the courage to stand up and say, this is who I am. I’m proud of that now.

- CG wrote this from the SHU at Corcoran State Prison in Corcoran, CA


Sunday, October 23, 2016

Rehabilitation by Kai of Alameda / The Beat Within

Rehabilitation
by Kai of Alameda
The Beat Within

I feel like it's important for programs be made available in juvenile hall, because it's important for the detainees to know that they have other options.  It's important for us to know that we have a support system outside of our parents, because it makes us feel like we can be what people are not expecting us to be.  

We need to know that we can accomplish more than what's being presented ot us to be more than just another statistic We are important and that we can change.

We need to know that we can change.

We wish to see society, should not and will not be able to make us feel like we can't be up to the challenge, because we are all human and we all deserve a change to show people that we can change and we can be what we never thought we'd be and that's why, we need more programs.

-Kai, Alameda

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Writer's on the Inside & The Beat Within

As creative expression educators involved in creative justice, I think it's critical to find ways to archive the work that's been collected.  Especially as a point of access for the incarcerated creators themselves; if they're ever to have the chance to look themselves up or to find the platforms from which they contributed their earliest of thoughts and creative works.  I plan to utilize Google's Blogspot to archive voices from Voices Behind Walls, but also resources such as the article below that contribute to our understanding of creative expression and the importance of incarcerated voices.  Google Blogspot is the only online platform I know of that I'm hoping will hold on to these messages indefinitely on the world wide web.

I hope one day the world has access to the 20+ years of incarcerated writing that The Beat Within has accumulated.  That is a labor of justice that will need to be accessible for years to come.  Especially for understanding how a concept like Writers on the Inside and The Beat Within came to be during this age of mass incarceration.  Creative expression has a history, a very important one. 

A lot to understand from these voices, a lot to teach, a lot to learn. 

-Lee


Healing Words: 
Creative Writing Programs as Therapy for Kids in Detention
by James Swift

ANNISTON, Ala. -- Mercy Pilkington’s classroom, at first glance, seems like any other in the nation’s public school system. Novels penned by John Steinbeck and Harper Lee are stacked over a U-shaped row of cubicles. The walls are lined with laminated posters; crayon-colored cutouts of chubby red robins and lime-green pigs are pasted on the room’s sole window.

Pilkington, 39, has taught for 11 years. For the last six, she’s been an English instructor at Coosa Valley Youth Services (CVYS), a facility for juvenile offenders in this northeast Alabama city tucked in the foothills of the Appalachians. After years of distress from discarding her students’ writing after they left the facility, Pilkington decided to give her students -- both former and current -- the ability to share their writing with the world at large through a blog called “Writers on the Inside.”

The blog gives students access to their essays, poetry and stories long after they leave CVYS, Pilkington said. “When you’re not here, you can call up this website and there’s the story that you wrote,” she tells her students.

On this day, Pilkington’s classroom is primarily an audience of young boys, all clad in neon-orange jumpers, a reminder that this is no ordinary school. She carries a chemical restraint canister at her hip, and a personal alarm is tethered to her keychain. Still, through six years at CVYS, she said she’s never had to use the chemical restraint, and used the alarm only once -- when one of her students experienced a seizure in class.

Although Pilkington has worked with several young people that came from “good homes,” the majority of her students have extensive histories of abuse and neglect, she said.

“If you live in a home where your stepfather rapes you,” she said, “or you live in a house where you come home everyday wondering if your mom is there -- let alone if she’s sober -- it’s not going to turn out well.”

She added: “People need to understand society created these kids. We turn them into the things they end up being.”

There Are A Lot of Us Interested In What They Have To Say


Pilkington’s program is not the only one of its kind in the United States. Many programs incorporating elements of creative writing have been set up across the nation’s juvenile halls and treatment facilities, with the National Endowment for the Arts recognizing creative writing workshops like Massachusetts’ Actors’ Shakespeare Project and the Los Angeles-based InsideOUT Writers. Proponents of such programs believe not only can creative writing play a huge role in the rehabilitation of young offenders; they additionally serve as opportunities to instill both a sense of empowerment and consistency to a juvenile population frequently considered downtrodden and unstable.

David Inocencio, co-founder and director of The Beat Within, a San Francisco-based magazine that features essays and stories written by juvenile detainees, says creative writing can definitely be a therapeutic process for young people in the nation’s juvenile justice system.

“You’re going to get a young person that’s carrying a lot of baggage to put the baggage in thoughts on paper,” he said. “They’re going to get this amazingly thoughtful writing that speaks to a young person wanting to see a better life for him or herself.”

Inocencio started publishing the magazine in 1996. For the last 17 years, he’s held writing workshops inside juvenile halls across California. Currently, The Beat Within personnel serve more than 5,000 young people in California, and conduct multiple workshops across the nation, including programs in Arizona, Texas and Washington, D.C.

Making writing a habit for young people, Inocencio stated, is a tremendous platform for young people to express themselves and air their concerns about the environments they inhabit.

“We encourage the young people to keep on writing no matter where they go,” he said. “Whether it’s penitentiary, rehab, a group home or back into their communities -- that they keep writing to tell their story.”

Inocencio said writing programs like The Beat Within allow a population without a voice to speak up. The effects, he believes, also prove positive for adults within the juvenile justice field, as it gives attorneys, service workers and judges greater insight into the lives of young offenders.

“We’re able to get a window in the world of this young person,” he said. “In the end, when you read the publication, reading what these young people have to say through the workshops, you’re seeing what’s broken.”

He also believes writing workshops allow young people to develop trust for adults. “There are a lot of us interested in what they have to say,” he said.

The benefits of implementing creative writing programs in juvenile detention facilities are apparent, Inocencio said. “Seeing your writing, knowing that it’s going nationwide and read by folks in Washington, D.C., Alabama, Hawaii -- it empowers a young person.”

Creative writing not only changes a young person’s conceptualization of self, but also alters his or her life goals, Inocencio believes.

“It also helps the young writer realize that there’s more to his or her life than what got him or her in the system in the first place,” he said. “I don’t have to stay in the path of destruction [and I] do have the tools to get a high school diploma, or go on to higher education. Or that I am bigger than the label that has been placed on me.”

I’ve Had Some Really Surprising Stories

Pilkington says many of her students ask her if their blog entries have received any additional comments from website visitors. “They’re just blown away that people want to read it,” she said.

The Writers on the Inside entries consist primarily of in-class assignments, which, once redacted, are uploaded to the blog. “The students can’t use people’s names or their hometown,” she said. Additional safeguards ensure blog visitors cannot contact students, and students are not allowed to respond to comments posted on their entries. One of Pilkington’s greatest concerns is that individuals involved in some of her students’ charges may leave hateful or intimidating messages on the blog. She remedies this by setting the blog so all comments have to be pre-approved by her before being visible to visitors to the site.

“Almost everything that’s been put up there has been free writing,” she notes. “If you’ve got something in mind you want to write,” she frequently tells her students, “you’re more than welcome to.”

She said many times, her students just want someone to know what’s happened to them -- to have someone believe their accounts.

“It’s like they have this urge to get out and say, ‘Hey, this is what happened to me,’” she said. “I’ve had some really surprising stories.”

In one essay, titled “This is My Life,” one of Pilkington’s students reflects upon a long history of abuse suffered at the hands of her parents.

“When I hear somebody talking about how bad their life is just because they have a ‘fight’ with their parents, I get really mad.

“My real dad tried to kill me and now I’ll always have that big ugly scar on my stomach to remember it by. By the time I was seven my mom was a stripper/prostitute; she would do anything in order to get money for her drug addiction. Even if that meant selling her own daughter to grown men for support of it.”

Another essayist writes:

 “I have had a terrible life. My biological dad was in jail when my biological mother died, but he had two choices. 1. Find somebody to take care of me or 2. Put me in Foster Care.

“He decided to pick neither. Instead he tried to sell me and my other brother. My brother had some mental issues. He tried to kill me twice. Each time he had tried to drown me.”

Pilkington said although many of her students write about their own experiences, an equal number would prefer writing about more fantastical subjects. “I’ve gotten just as many that will not write about their personal life,” she said. “They want to write fiction short-stories.”

One of her students wrote of a fictitious inmate receiving a lethal injection, while others wrote about high school baseball stardom, earning their driver’s licenses and going fishing with explosives. The theme of guilt and punishment is common, even when the young writers dwell upon made-up worlds.

“As he left the scene of the crime, Victor was bawling,” begins one short story, titled “The Cry of Goodbye,” by a resident named J.F.

“He couldn’t believe his father had murdered that young boy.

“Victor had paid for the fine and the cars, but he new he could never pay for the little boy’s life. Victor had went to the little boy’s house so he could apologize to the little boy’s parents. The little boy’s parents were very happy that he had apologized.”

If You Like To Write, Or You’ve Got Something To Say, You Do It

Pilkington said she was initially surprised the CVYS administration wanted to start the program -- an idea she said was green-lit following an informal parking lot conversation.

“There are great facilities out there; there are some horrible facilities out there,“ she said. “And this happens to be one of the good ones that really cares a lot about what happens to kids.”

Pilkington said, gauging from their reactions to comments posted on her blog, her students believe they have something “worth saying” and something “that people want to know about.” During classes, she said she’s shown her students how to set up a blog, and demonstrated how she can update the site through smart phones and other mobile devices.

“If you like to write, or you’ve got something to say, you do it,” she said. “You don’t worry about what other people think about it or if just two people read it today. It’s your site.”

At the facility, Pilkington said some of her students have to write their essays using felt tip markers.

“I’m a writer myself, and I can’t imagine having to write my story on notebook paper with a magic marker,” she said.

Her students’ desire to write, even when having to resort to unconventional implements, demonstrates an emotional need to get their stories out, she believes. In some instances, Pilkington said, her students’ work is barely legible.

“We go through every single word and fix it to make it readable,” she said. “We sit there, and word for word, put a comma here, capitalize this.”

Pilkington said her intent with the blog is multifaceted, but at the end of the day, she just wants visitors to realize many of her pupils have a knack for the written word.

“I want people to read it,” she said, “and go, ‘Wow, the 15-year-old burglary suspect actually can write a decent story.’”



Swift, James. "Healing Words: Creative Writing Programs as Therapy for Kids in Detention." Weblog post. Juvenile Justice Information Exchange. JJIE, 29 Nov. 2012. Web. <http://jjie.org/healing-words-creative-writing-programs-as-therapy-for-kids-detention/99293/>.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

TBW INTERVIEWS: Will Roy / The Beat Within Interviews Pt. 1 (2003)


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The Beat Within Interviews Pt. 1
by Lee Rhyanes

This interview was conducted in 2003 as part of a journal article titled “The Violence of Youth, The Presence of a Pen” for the NMSU Ronald E. McNair Post-Baccalaureate Achievement Program. The title was inspired from part 1 of Luis Rodriguez’s text Hearts & Hands, Creating Community in Violent Times, “The Violence of Youth, the Abscence of Elders”. Will Roy was the first person Lee Rhyanes interviewed upon finding out about The Beat through the website www.thebeatwithin.org.  The other interviews included Co-Founder/Director David Inocencio and a Beat staff at the time Michael Kroll. The interview was recorded over landline phone and transcribed by Rhyanes. An audio recording poem titled ((I Write)) is also archived at youtube.com/voicesbehindwalls.  This is the first audio recording posted from VBW in effort to begin development of the site's "Justice Archive" that will include audio recordings, writings, artworks, and sketches of photographs taken during VBW workshops hosted inside of juvenile detention.  Immediate links to the VBW Research Network, the VBW Justice Archive ((Audio)), and the full interview in PDF can be accessed below.  In order to read and see the interview you will need to have Adobe Reader which you can access for free at the following link: get.adobe.com/reader/.


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VBW Justice Archive: ((I Write)) by Will Roy feat. Avoid the Lyricist
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VBW Research Network: vbwresearch.blogspot.com
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Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Steve Serna Interview by Christine


'Changing Lives'

The Beat Within Interview with
Steve Serna by Christine

Interview (PDF): click here