Sunday, October 24, 2021

25 Years of The Beat Within


The Beat Within Since 1996

Thankful to have the opportunity to reconnect with a program and publication that had the kind of impact on my trajectory towards being a part of education as a teacher. In the early 2000s, as I thought about what I would focus on after being selected for the Robert E. McNair Program at NMSU, I noticed a copy of The Beat Within amongst the scattered chaos of my undergrad studies on the living room floor. I had to meet a deadline for what I wanted to focus on when it came to continuing my education in the criminal justice field. That copy on the floor of The Beat Within magazine was the answer to what would matter most to me as a student of Hip Hop and a person that wanted to support and create platforms that allowed for more voices to be heard. At the time, I wasn't aware of how education would work it's way into what I wanted to do with my life. In my experience growing up in public education, during the formative years of my elementary and secondary life, what I wanted to be was far removed from ever working in a school. Looking back, it would take a bit more growing up and connections with teachers like Susie Castro Clark from high school and my 2nd grade teacher Mrs. Barkley for me to realize the kind of impact educators can have on students that aren't quite sure where they're headed. Over the years I'd see how the value of education didn't start or stop with a school building, but existed in those that raised us, the peers we connected with, and the experiences we attached ourselves to. When I started visiting youth at a local juvenile detention center, it was the young people there that helped me see how I could start to fulfill the responsibilities of an educator, a teacher, and a guide towards creative expression. The youth of Voices Behind Walls helped me see how in our own world out here in the Southwest, we could do our thing too and connect with our creative power to rhyme, write, and share our thoughts and stories. I'm honored to continue to have that chance to think about this experience through the pages of The Beat Within. 

In the 25th Anniversary issue, I got the chance to share a reflective piece titled Tupac Shakur & The Beat Within Legacy. The writing focuses on Tupac's mother, Afeni Shakur and a text she helped usher into the public's hands titled Tupac Shakur Legacy. Shout out to The Beat Within founder, David Inocencio, for the chance to share a space in The Beat Within publication for a monthly column I titled VBehindWColumn. I encourage everyone to please support The Beat Within. Spread the word about this publication and encourage your local juvenile justice systems to make the publication available to their youth and reach out to The Beat on ways that youth can share their stories and learn from the stories of others in this magazine. Online you'll find The Beat at: thebeatwithin.org and please see the Subscription info thebeatwithin.org/subscription.

Here's to the next 25 years.

check.

Mr. Lee

Sunday, February 21, 2021

VBehindW Column 'The Listening' Lifetime of Wreckage

On the way to a 25th year anniversary, shout out to The Beat Within! For the latest volume 26.05/06 the VBehindW Column introduces a segment titled 'The Listening'. For the first, the column focuses on the latest release from DJ/beat maker/eMCee from California Drasar Monumental & the Lifetime of Wreckage EP. A snap of the column as published in The Beat Within is included towards the end of this post. To request a full copy of The Beat Within check the subscription page thebeatwithin.org/subscription/   This publication circulates throughout the juvenile & adult mass incarceration system of America and to institutions globally. To Drasar Monumental, thank you! Links to Drasar's locations online are included as links throughout the column shared in text below. You can purchase a Lifetime of Wreckage at the following link, Vendetta Vinyl, respect! This one's for Hip Hop.


Lifetime of Wreckage ‘The Listening’
VBehindW Column by Mr. Lee

Peace readers, for this column I will explore the beats, rhymes & lives of the listening experience. This VBehindW segment is not a music review. The goal of ‘The Listening’ is not to persuade you to listen to something just because I like it and want to write about it. What I listen to is what I listen to, just like what you listen to tells a story of your connection to music. I feel it’s one of many reasons Hip Hop caught my attention when it arrived in my life during my childhood years. What I heard as a kid felt like music I would grow to call my own. It introduced our generation to stories of other neighborhoods and cities beyond our own throughout the country. As I got older I realized Hip Hop extended beyond the U.S. and all across the globe. Hip Hop resides in the dustiest of details and in the cracks of all age circumstance that brings creators together to offer something that could live on its own and represent something original and something connected to the past and created for the future.

In this column we press play on a segment I call ‘The Listening’ to introduce you to a record by a DJ/beatmaker/eMCee out of California who goes by Drasar Monumental. Drasar considers himself all-state born and bred having grown up throughout Southern California and currently residing and creating in Northern Cali. In 2020, Drasar released a record titled Lifetime of Wreckage EP. An EP is shorter than a full album and can be a part of a consecutive release of EPs connected to a specific theme or larger album project (pt. 1, pt. 2, pt. 3, etc.).

On the back of the Lifetime of Wreckage EP it states, “Recorded in Vietnam, California”. The image that accompanies this column is of the actual vinyl record I have with artwork by Cawza One & Sonny Wong. Drasar also worked with Kufu 1. All three are graff artists which Drasar believes to be the highest form of artistry. Reflecting on the artwork Drasar shared, “When people pick up a record the first thing they see is the artwork, which I do not take lightly…The artwork should reflect the music and vice-versa. All of the ideas and images have been thought out tremendously. Luckily, I have artist around me that are dead serious about their craft, just like I am, or certain things would not have worked. Salute to all three of them for their energy, time, effort and talent.”

On the Lifetime of Wreckage EP Drasar created the beats, wrote and expressed the rhymes and handled the scratches. For those that don’t know, scratching is a sound effect created with a turntable by a DJ to produce specific sounds that go with the beat. Drasar’s ear is informed by his travels all around the globe digging for vinyl records and accumulating a library of music which inspires what he creates through a creative process called sampling. I couldn’t begin to guess the source of Drasar’s samples. This has been the case for everything I’ve heard from Drasar dating back to his work on a series he produced called Good Morning Vietnam with legendary eMCee by the name of MF Grimm aka Grand Master Grimm. Grimm is originally from Manhattan, New York. Drasar also collaborated with a beat maker that goes by Ayatollah from Queens, New York for a series released under the group duo name Boxcutter Brothers. The boxcutter is a metaphor for chopping up beats and slicing and rearranging sounds, what Drasar refers to as having a dual meaning in the world of beat production…“Staying sharp on those samplers”. Drasar adds, “In my opinion, what I am doing is composing from a wide range of media sources. It’s a collage sensibility where anything that I hear can be manipulated to get my point across. Sampling connects the old with the new in a way where it actually takes the producer on a journey of education, awareness, and history…Older musicians should be extremely proud that we are keeping their vibrations and sounds alive.” For our younger readers, sampling is regarded by many in Hip Hop as foundational to Hip Hop’s inception and its connection to the past, or what Los Angeles duo People Under the Stairs referred to on their O.S.T. album as ((The Dig)). Rest in peace to Double K. Vinyl records once the primary medium in which music was released and heard throughout the world going back more than fifty years continues to be a part of how music is released today. In my opinion, I don’t think any other genre is as tied to vinyl’s existence as Hip Hop, not only for the purpose of creating and releasing new music, but also for what it’s worth as a purchase in the digital age.

In Drasar’s lived experience he has seen whole generations swept off the streets and thrown into incarceration. There are pieces of dialogue chopped throughout Drasar’s music that reflect on the generational impact of mass incarceration. The first example I recall on the track Drasar produced called ((Economics)) with MF Grimm off the Good Morning Vietnam 3: The Phoenix Program album. On Lifetime of Wreckage the track ((Black Calculus Part 3)) Drasar spits, “In 2020 your mind is your strongest weapon…” I think about a publication like The Beat Within and what youth and adults take on when they decide to pick up a pen to think and write. Drasar shared his personal connection to the the importance of reaching out stating, “I’m down to help out in any shape, form, fashion possible. My younger brother got caught up and ultimately it led to his demise (RIP). It left a profound effect on me and I feel it is my duty to try and assist the younger cats in finding a way to sidestep the pitfalls of incarceration…”

Drasar describes his music as, “a wall of sound…bass, treble, and highs. HEAVY! My music is a sonic outlet of anger and frustration.” Instead of taking out what he describes as vitriol on others, he transfers aggressive energy into music. “It’s more productive to me in that fashion, many people don’t have a creative outlet, and I believe that pent up frustration manifest itself in a myriad of shortcomings and dysfunctionality…This [music] is my tool for expressing my deepest thoughts and opinions.” What Drasar explains takes me back to a Beat Within documentary recorded in 98’. In the video a Beat Within facilitator who was also incarcerated as a youth shared how his writings that expressed rage transferred through the pen. In the documentary available on YouTube (search The Beat Within 1998 documentary Pt.2) he states, “it was apropos that when I started to let the rage out, it went to the pen and it came out through my hand, and it was all going through the hand…I used to say when you read my early writings it was just violence, it was spewing, ranting, and railing at the world…in essence I’d turned that knife into a pen, and I was stabbing the page.” The facilitator added…“I believe in writing, and I believe in the therapy of writing, and I always say that what I try to do with these kids, is replicate what I did for myself, is turn the solid to the sound to a liberating writing experience.”

The Lifetime of Wreckage EP vinyl on Side A features songs by Drasar with rhymes and on Side B listeners experience those same songs expressed strictly through beats. Early on in my life I remember it was beat smiths like Havoc of Mobb Deep & RZA of Wu Tang Clan that made me wish there was a way to hear the music we saw on TV or heard on cassette strictly through beats. I was too young to know this was already going down. I didn’t have the know how as a middle schooler to look behind some of my father’s records even during the 80s when I’d sit close by and watch him sift through records to play his favorite songs on this turntable that sat on this tower of buttons, levels, and cassette ports. I’d learn later that sometimes vinyl records included versions of songs without the lyrics. For years I always felt it was Hip Hop that started serving up beats to listeners until I reached back and listened to soundtracks like Enter the Dragon by Lalo Schifrin or Marvin Gaye’s Trouble Man soundtrack or certain WAR records and even James Brown. Years ago a military recruiter shared a song by James Brown with me called ((King Heroin)). In the song JB recites a poem through rhyme about the struggles of addiction. On records and 45s, I discovered instrumental versions were described in different ways.

A part of Drasar Monumental’s inspiration to create comes from his father who put him on early to music. He was also inspired by local DJs and radio stations like KCSB and the legendary KDAY which exposed Drasar to “certain spectrum of sounds that shaped/shapes my musical worldview somewhat.” Drasar expresses a lifetime of wreckage on four tracks. With each listen another story is told, inspiring new conversations about Hip Hop music and its purpose. Vendetta Vinyl is the name of Drasar’s independent record label. Based in California with retailers all around the world the mission of Vendetta Vinyl is to “provide thought-provoking Hip Hop with an edge…no crybaby rap, no tinkerbell beats, no bozo bars, no extras…” In the mission Drasar and company add, “if you’re fed up with the current state of affairs – walk with us as we venture into the depths of hardcore Hip Hop chaos with reckless abandon. We don’t wait to get checked in, we check ourselves in.”

If you do your history, this is the foundation of Hip Hop. Drasar explains this in an interview with The Lost Tapes…“What we do, its’ foundation, you know, foundation Hip Hop where you got your breaks and stuff and fly rhymes and all that good stuff, but we build on the foundation into the 21st century; one foot in the past, and one in the future…We’re concerned with leaving a legacy and adding on to the greatness of Hip Hop.”

Til’ the next listening readers…Shout out to everyone in The Beat world and special thanks to Drasar Monumental for his time. Music is for everybody including the generation of youth that are going to continue to create and express themselves regardless of the challenges ahead. As Bruce Lee said it’s about having no limitation as limitation, using no way as way. In Hip Hop, creators often reflect on their success and the notion that it comes from making something out of nothing. I feel some of you will find out that even in spaces of nothingness and invisibility, your story, your voice, who you are and what you have to say can become your greatest asset, most valuable resource. Like a guiding light, what you have to say can become the light for someone else. Keep representin’ through this outlet we love, The Beat Within. Express yourself because you never know who is listening and who needs to hear what you got to say. 

Check.

Mr. Lee



Wednesday, December 16, 2020

The Beat Within VBehindW Column

Introducing the VBehindW Column

This past year joined The Beat Within family for a few sessions on Sundays to share out thoughts on weekly topics that facilitators were presenting to incarcerated youth and adults in workshop for the publication. The Beat hosted a Zoom Poetry Reading as well, dedicated to Beat colleague Pauline Craig. While The Beat family sessions on Zoom had to be discontinued to keep up with publication prep of the magazine, I'm thankful for the opportunity to connect with the founder of The Beat, Dave Inocencio to contribute a monthly column I title the VBehindW Column. VBehindW stands for Voices Behind Walls. In 2020, submitted several columns that included poems and writings titled, 'For the G'z from YGC (San Francisco)', 'For the Children Going Through It', 'When We ((listen)) to The Beat Within', 'Miracles', 'B.A.B.Y.', and the most recent for the 2020 wrap up issue, titled 'Dedicated to The Beat Within 2020'. I look forward to the year ahead and the opportunity to contribute to The Beat Within. It's an honor to be able to contribute to a publication that did so much for me in my development as a student and educator. 

Stay tuned!


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Saturday, August 29, 2020

Brian Jackson & Keith LaMar Podcast

 

Pieces of a Man Podcast

The story of Keith LaMar, author of Condemned through one of the most iconic music men on the keys in my opinion, Brian Jackson. They explore stories of justice, LaMar's fight for his life on death row, and a look back at the power of music through a creator like Jackson and someone who's absorbed the power of that sound like LaMar. Tune in! Below are links to the places online.

Pieces of a Man Podcast: brianjackson.net/podcast

The story of Keith Lamar author of Condemned: keithlamar.org

Condemned Documentary: YouTube click here

Thursday, March 26, 2020

The Beat Within 2020



The Beat Within 2020

Taking a moment to honor The Beat Within, a publication of art and writing from the inside...Here's to another year & all its challenges. Check them out at thebeatwithin.org.


Friday, November 29, 2019

Ear Hustle HQ


Ear Hustle HQ podcasts

It's been a while! While frequent updates are posted on the Twitter handle @vbehindw more often than not, I did want to slide into the VBW blog to put up a permanent note about this podcast right here. In a podcast landscape that continues to grow daily, this is one of the few that I often return to to make sure I don't miss a beat! Broadcasting out of San Quentin Prison, there is absolutely nothing like Ear Hustle. One of the most unique and interesting forms of storytelling about the American Legal System that I feel I've ever heard. It makes me wonder what other prisons sound like. It makes me wonder the role it plays in the lives of all those involved and how exciting it must be to embark on an opportunity as groundbreaking as the podcast universe. I'm a big fan of earhustle and encourage everyone to check in with this podcast at the following link: earhustlesq.com

Respect to the Ear Hustle family...can't even express how crazy it is to have followed Earlonne's journey from the inside out. That's a story I'll never forget, especially to hear it all develop through the podcast itself. Tune in world!


If you have a podcast that explores aspects of the American Legal System please reach out and let us know! We'd love to be your audience! voicesbehindwalls@gmail.com

Saturday, May 12, 2018

Why Do I Write? by CG The Beat Within

Why Do I Write?
by CG of The Beat Within
Corcoran State Prison (SHU)

It hasn’t always been easy for me to write, and I still struggle at it from time to time due to the fact that I confront so many feelings and emotions when I sit down and write from my heart and soul. For so many years I have struggled with this, ‘cause for so long I didn’t know what a heart and soul was, or what it meant. It’s the innermost sacred part of a human being. It’s the most precious gift a person can possess or share with someone else.

When I sit down and write, all defense mechanisms are shut down, and there’s no holding back — there’s no hiding anything from the person you are writing. Whatever you are doing with your creative skills, it must be done from the heart and the truth that lies inside; for it’s an intimate moment with yourself and the person (or cause) you’re sharing your heart with.

The only things we actually keep are those we give away. Sharing a piece of writing that comes from your heart is giving it away to someone who takes the time to read it. It means everything to me when someone takes time to read what I have to say or express. You know, for many years there wasn’t much that had any meaning to me besides faking to be the person that I thought others would want me to be. All I cared about was impressing others, doing whatever I had to, to earn their acceptance and praise. Living that life has kept me in the dark and from identifying and knowing the true person I am.

I’m 28 years old right now, and I didn’t even begin to know the true me until I decided to let the old me go completely. This started a few years ago to be exact. I discovered who I truly was through writing and by sharing with my family the truth about me by revealing to them the news of me having a personal relationship with my higher power. That’s how it began, and the more I wrote, the more I learned. And I must tell you: my life has been changing for the better ever since. Granted, I’m still in prison. I still have 15 years to do, but finally I’m able to get to know the real me. That has been a gift from up above.

I’ve lived a hard life, going from placement to placement, camp to camp, juvenile hall, CYA, now prison. I’ve been in prison for 10 years. I’m doing 25 years for robberies. A sad fact, but a fact nonetheless. I’m not proud of my past, and I can’t change what is already done; but I can surely change who I am today, and I am changing through writing, by sharing and expressing my emotions and thoughts on paper.

I lived my life the way I did because I was hiding from the person I truly was, and living my life for the person I thought I was. I should have been living my life for those who truly cared about me. I wish my past on no one, and I am lucky to have lived long enough to change. Some more worthy people are not as fortunate. May God bless their souls. Rest in peace.

Writing means a lot to me, for that’s how I began my searching and took a fearless moral inventory of myself. I discovered who I am. I found a lost little boy inside who was very happy to be rescued. That little boy has grown up some and has been through a lot of pain and hardships. All the assaults upon my life have truly made me stronger and have played a big part in forming the person I am today.

I’ve spent many days in pain and tears, sifting through all the demons that were within. I figured out a way to deliver myself from them, and that’s by writing down my feelings and thoughts. I’m finally discovering the person I’ve always wanted to be. It was hard to find it, and I had to let go of the old me.

One may ask, what does this have to do with me? Or, how does this apply to my life? Writing has enabled me to open up doors to people in ways I had never thought imaginable since those doors have never been open before. So, it hasn’t been easy. But then again, nothing with value in life comes easily. Everybody tries to be so perfect, and that causes us to hold back in fear of what another person may think.

Being able to open up and write has given me the courage to say on paper what I have failed to say in person, or simply never thought of saying at all. Being able to write and share my heart with someone is one of the greatest gifts I can ever offer. In doing so, I offer myself. Before, the true “me” was always beneath the so-called image of “I don’t care about anything” attitude, which was nothing but a mask of lies.

I don’t know how my writing has affected others, but I know how some writings have affected me. All the letters my family has written me I’ve kept, for that’s a piece of their heart and soul on that paper which no one can take from me. God forbid, if something ever happens to them, at least this way I’ll be able to cherish and absorb the love and affection they put forth in the form of a letter, which I will always have. Those letters mean a lot to me, because possibly one day that’s all I will have.

Being able to express myself in writing has worked a great change in my life. The last few years have  been years of self-transformation. I can honestly say that writing and sharing my inner self with others, I’ve probably saved my life. The chance to express my most inner feelings has brought out a part of me I never knew existed.

Writing won’t keep you from all trials in life, but it will for sure help you cope and give you strength to carry on. Facing life’s changes is never an easy task, but using your pen as your vessel can get you through the roughest of waters. Some of the simplest words have the greatest meaning. Sometimes when I write, I’m blown away that I have written such words, and have expressed such emotion.

The more I write, the more I learn about myself. The more I learn about myself, the more I get in touch with who I am. The more I know who I am, the more I’m able to change the flaws in me. The more I work on myself, a better person emerges.

Writing has changed my life. It has rebuilt bridges that were once burnt. It has touched other lives that ordinarily wouldn’t be touched. It’s given me the courage to stand up and say, this is who I am. I’m proud of that now.

- CG wrote this from the SHU at Corcoran State Prison in Corcoran, CA


Saturday, May 6, 2017

The Story of Ash Meadow


Paranoia & Heart-Break 
15 Years in a Juvenile Facility
by Jerome Gold

Seven Stories Press
Amazon: click here
  
On my summer's reading list this year from Seven Stories Press. I'm hoping one day to write about my experience volunteering inside of juvenile detention recording the poetry and Hip Hop rap of incarcerated boys for eight years. In that time I amassed hundreds of audio recordings, stories that have informed every opportunity I've had to teach thereafter (someday...someday)...Hope to be inspired reading Jerome Gold's personal story.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

#TBWMixtape In Memory of Kalief Browder


(See tracklist below)

#TBWMixtape
In Memory of Kalief Browder
Arranged by Lee

In the Fall semester of 2015 I taught a course I developed for New Mexico State University (NMSU) called 'The Beat Within, a Compositional History of Incarcerated Writing'. The course was inspired from my undergraduate study with the Ronald E. McNair program which helped first generation college students like myself advance into graduate school or PhD programs. For my undergrad study I discovered a publication of writing and art from juvenile halls around the country called The Beat Within. The publication inspired me and allowed me to connect my life long passion for word play and Hip Hop with what I wanted to focus on when it came to Criminal Justice studies.  Later, this allowed me to create a program that gave incarcerated youth a platform to be heard and documented through audio recording and Hip Hop production. The program became known as Voices Behind Walls and was named by incarcerated youth in El Paso, Texas.  This program would later locate itself into a juvenile prison in Las Cruces, New Mexico for close to eight years. During that time I picked up a lot of experience I'd later turn into course concepts I proposed to the Criminal Justice Department and taught at NMSU. These courses were focused on understanding "creative justice" and the history of programs like The Beat Within and community members that found ways inside America's juvenile or adult prison system to connect prisoners to creative expression.

For the Fall semester of 2015 I decided to have students focus on a text that just hit the shelves a year before by Nell Bernstein titled Burning Down the House, The End of Juvenile Prison.  Preparing for the semester I discovered all kinds of threads to my experience as an undergrad and graduate student including a connection to an alumni of The Beat Within named Will Roy. As I read the text I found out Will Roy contributed research for Burning Down the House and played a major role in bringing the book to fruition.  Over a decade prior when I was an undergrad I recorded Will Roy through a phone interview to learn more about The Beat Within. At the time Will was working at The Beat Within and shared his thoughts about the program and his perspective on creative expression. I captured the interview in audio for my research and to broadcast on air for a radio show I hosted at the NMSU station KRUX 91.5 FM. Never before heard pieces of this interview are included on the first side of the #TBWMixtape.

On September 8th, 2015, I decided to incorporate audio into one of our discussion posts for The Beat Within course giving birth to the idea of a course mixtape. In courses prior to TBW Fall 2015 I often utilized audio as part of the course work to connect students to insights from the authors we read or other voices/music relevant to the course content. For this semester, I wanted to curate all of the audio I used or that students shared blending it altogether in mixtape form with music. This goal was inspired from my time at NMSU's college radio station which often involved radio shows built around specific people or moments in history. While I was able to start the Fall 2015 semester strong with a powerful introduction to the #TBWMixtape courtesy of some James Baldwin audio  and a Talking Heads instrumental, the semester wouldn't allow me much time to arrange it the way I wanted to. This put the mixtape idea on hold. 

As I prepared for the course during the summer of 2015, my research introduced me to the life of Kalief Browder.  Before that what I knew about Rikers Island came by way of references in film or music or real life accounts by authors like Luis Cedeno aka DJ Disco Wiz, Hip Hop's first Latino DJ, and social justice photographer Joseph Rodriguez. Both documented some experience about their time at Rikers Island in print. However, Kalief Browder was the first time I'd learn about life for a youth in Riker's juvenile hell.  It gave precedence to why I decided to solely focus on Bernstein's text, Burning Down the House, the End of Juvenile Prison for the semester. I also decided to dedicate the course to the life of Kalief Browder.  Students were introduced to Kalief through interviews, most notably his Huffington Post interview with Dr. Marc Lamont Hill and civil rights attorney Paul Prestia. We also took a week to reflect on Kalief's own words from an essay he wrote about solitary confinement titled 'A Closer Look at Solitary Confinement in the United States'. We closed with several other supplementary readings, the last chapters of Bernstein's text, and an introduction to a campaign called Shut Down Rikers. The campaign is a response to New York City's injustice and is reflective of a litany of lives that have succumbed to the trauma if in-correction in New York's Riker's Island and other places like it in America that are surrounded by barbed wire and filled to the gills with bodies.     

So much has happened in 2016.  Throughout the year, I thought about Kalief Browder often as piece by piece I continued to assemble audio for the #TBWMixtape. I revisited the interview with Will Roy from 2003 and also noticed some updates about Kalief's family and their case against the city of New York thanks to tweets shared by Paul Prestia and supporters through the Shut Down Rikers campaign.  Some time lapsed during the summer when I noticed the report of Kalief's mother, Venida Browder, passing away from a broken heart.  Afterwards I had found out about a documentary that Spike TV and Jay-Z were planning to introduce to the world. While I was hopeful for what this would mean to Kalief's memory, there was something about the presentation of the Spike TV press conference.  I thought about what Ms. Browder was feeling at that moment as she sat silently while film producers introduced the audience into what the film meant for the network, justice, and Kalief's story.  

I decided to dedicate Side B of the #TBWMixtape entirely to Kalief and the Browder family. Through Kalief, I think often of hundreds of youth I sat down with face to face in the juvenile halls to record their poetry, rhymes, or just to record what they had to share that day about their lives.  I approached each session with humility and compassion for their circumstance and a hope that the recording would provide their minds with a moment to breathe, think, and imagine themselves outside of confinement.  What we recorded opened space for their views no matter how limited those views were by the isolation of where they were. In time we'd learn from these audios, discuss, share stories, create audio projects, and engaged in a few chess battles. Outside of the facility and til' this day I've replayed those voices on the radio, shared them in the classroom, and played them anywhere I could plug in a set of speakers so others could listen.  

This #TBWMixtape is an ode to Kalief and the last class I would instruct at New Mexico State University after teaching there for twelve semesters. While people will continue to read about these issues, watch one documentary after another, get updates from news reports...there's something about the replay value and soul of a mixtape...there's something spiritual about how those voices and music come together to fill the void of silence. Its true to the art of listening and true to the art of reflection and a reconnection to voices like Kaliefs.  Connection to the truth and pain of Ms. Browder's own words and her voice. Connection to the voices of Kalief's surviving siblings and older brother Akeem.


#Lee @vbehindw @vbwclass 


Update 2/26/2017 Tracklist:



Sunday, October 23, 2016

Rehabilitation by Kai of Alameda / The Beat Within

Rehabilitation
by Kai of Alameda
The Beat Within

I feel like it's important for programs be made available in juvenile hall, because it's important for the detainees to know that they have other options.  It's important for us to know that we have a support system outside of our parents, because it makes us feel like we can be what people are not expecting us to be.  

We need to know that we can accomplish more than what's being presented ot us to be more than just another statistic We are important and that we can change.

We need to know that we can change.

We wish to see society, should not and will not be able to make us feel like we can't be up to the challenge, because we are all human and we all deserve a change to show people that we can change and we can be what we never thought we'd be and that's why, we need more programs.

-Kai, Alameda

Thursday, June 2, 2016

#TBW2016cj Summer 2 Fliers #VBWClassroom

All of the fliers, including alternate and original, to promote this summer's Creative Expressions of Masculinity In & Out of Juvenile Detention course have been included below. On Twitter check out the hashtag #TBW2016cj for links, resources, and updates related to the class. Also #TBWcj for all posts related to the courses history.  The white board below includes a listing of all courses that have been developed through the VBW Classroom concept.  All courses based on experience as a creative expression educator and volunteer over the past decade in El Paso, Texas and Las Cruces, NM.






Saturday, May 14, 2016

Writer's on the Inside & The Beat Within

As creative expression educators involved in creative justice, I think it's critical to find ways to archive the work that's been collected.  Especially as a point of access for the incarcerated creators themselves; if they're ever to have the chance to look themselves up or to find the platforms from which they contributed their earliest of thoughts and creative works.  I plan to utilize Google's Blogspot to archive voices from Voices Behind Walls, but also resources such as the article below that contribute to our understanding of creative expression and the importance of incarcerated voices.  Google Blogspot is the only online platform I know of that I'm hoping will hold on to these messages indefinitely on the world wide web.

I hope one day the world has access to the 20+ years of incarcerated writing that The Beat Within has accumulated.  That is a labor of justice that will need to be accessible for years to come.  Especially for understanding how a concept like Writers on the Inside and The Beat Within came to be during this age of mass incarceration.  Creative expression has a history, a very important one. 

A lot to understand from these voices, a lot to teach, a lot to learn. 

-Lee


Healing Words: 
Creative Writing Programs as Therapy for Kids in Detention
by James Swift

ANNISTON, Ala. -- Mercy Pilkington’s classroom, at first glance, seems like any other in the nation’s public school system. Novels penned by John Steinbeck and Harper Lee are stacked over a U-shaped row of cubicles. The walls are lined with laminated posters; crayon-colored cutouts of chubby red robins and lime-green pigs are pasted on the room’s sole window.

Pilkington, 39, has taught for 11 years. For the last six, she’s been an English instructor at Coosa Valley Youth Services (CVYS), a facility for juvenile offenders in this northeast Alabama city tucked in the foothills of the Appalachians. After years of distress from discarding her students’ writing after they left the facility, Pilkington decided to give her students -- both former and current -- the ability to share their writing with the world at large through a blog called “Writers on the Inside.”

The blog gives students access to their essays, poetry and stories long after they leave CVYS, Pilkington said. “When you’re not here, you can call up this website and there’s the story that you wrote,” she tells her students.

On this day, Pilkington’s classroom is primarily an audience of young boys, all clad in neon-orange jumpers, a reminder that this is no ordinary school. She carries a chemical restraint canister at her hip, and a personal alarm is tethered to her keychain. Still, through six years at CVYS, she said she’s never had to use the chemical restraint, and used the alarm only once -- when one of her students experienced a seizure in class.

Although Pilkington has worked with several young people that came from “good homes,” the majority of her students have extensive histories of abuse and neglect, she said.

“If you live in a home where your stepfather rapes you,” she said, “or you live in a house where you come home everyday wondering if your mom is there -- let alone if she’s sober -- it’s not going to turn out well.”

She added: “People need to understand society created these kids. We turn them into the things they end up being.”

There Are A Lot of Us Interested In What They Have To Say


Pilkington’s program is not the only one of its kind in the United States. Many programs incorporating elements of creative writing have been set up across the nation’s juvenile halls and treatment facilities, with the National Endowment for the Arts recognizing creative writing workshops like Massachusetts’ Actors’ Shakespeare Project and the Los Angeles-based InsideOUT Writers. Proponents of such programs believe not only can creative writing play a huge role in the rehabilitation of young offenders; they additionally serve as opportunities to instill both a sense of empowerment and consistency to a juvenile population frequently considered downtrodden and unstable.

David Inocencio, co-founder and director of The Beat Within, a San Francisco-based magazine that features essays and stories written by juvenile detainees, says creative writing can definitely be a therapeutic process for young people in the nation’s juvenile justice system.

“You’re going to get a young person that’s carrying a lot of baggage to put the baggage in thoughts on paper,” he said. “They’re going to get this amazingly thoughtful writing that speaks to a young person wanting to see a better life for him or herself.”

Inocencio started publishing the magazine in 1996. For the last 17 years, he’s held writing workshops inside juvenile halls across California. Currently, The Beat Within personnel serve more than 5,000 young people in California, and conduct multiple workshops across the nation, including programs in Arizona, Texas and Washington, D.C.

Making writing a habit for young people, Inocencio stated, is a tremendous platform for young people to express themselves and air their concerns about the environments they inhabit.

“We encourage the young people to keep on writing no matter where they go,” he said. “Whether it’s penitentiary, rehab, a group home or back into their communities -- that they keep writing to tell their story.”

Inocencio said writing programs like The Beat Within allow a population without a voice to speak up. The effects, he believes, also prove positive for adults within the juvenile justice field, as it gives attorneys, service workers and judges greater insight into the lives of young offenders.

“We’re able to get a window in the world of this young person,” he said. “In the end, when you read the publication, reading what these young people have to say through the workshops, you’re seeing what’s broken.”

He also believes writing workshops allow young people to develop trust for adults. “There are a lot of us interested in what they have to say,” he said.

The benefits of implementing creative writing programs in juvenile detention facilities are apparent, Inocencio said. “Seeing your writing, knowing that it’s going nationwide and read by folks in Washington, D.C., Alabama, Hawaii -- it empowers a young person.”

Creative writing not only changes a young person’s conceptualization of self, but also alters his or her life goals, Inocencio believes.

“It also helps the young writer realize that there’s more to his or her life than what got him or her in the system in the first place,” he said. “I don’t have to stay in the path of destruction [and I] do have the tools to get a high school diploma, or go on to higher education. Or that I am bigger than the label that has been placed on me.”

I’ve Had Some Really Surprising Stories

Pilkington says many of her students ask her if their blog entries have received any additional comments from website visitors. “They’re just blown away that people want to read it,” she said.

The Writers on the Inside entries consist primarily of in-class assignments, which, once redacted, are uploaded to the blog. “The students can’t use people’s names or their hometown,” she said. Additional safeguards ensure blog visitors cannot contact students, and students are not allowed to respond to comments posted on their entries. One of Pilkington’s greatest concerns is that individuals involved in some of her students’ charges may leave hateful or intimidating messages on the blog. She remedies this by setting the blog so all comments have to be pre-approved by her before being visible to visitors to the site.

“Almost everything that’s been put up there has been free writing,” she notes. “If you’ve got something in mind you want to write,” she frequently tells her students, “you’re more than welcome to.”

She said many times, her students just want someone to know what’s happened to them -- to have someone believe their accounts.

“It’s like they have this urge to get out and say, ‘Hey, this is what happened to me,’” she said. “I’ve had some really surprising stories.”

In one essay, titled “This is My Life,” one of Pilkington’s students reflects upon a long history of abuse suffered at the hands of her parents.

“When I hear somebody talking about how bad their life is just because they have a ‘fight’ with their parents, I get really mad.

“My real dad tried to kill me and now I’ll always have that big ugly scar on my stomach to remember it by. By the time I was seven my mom was a stripper/prostitute; she would do anything in order to get money for her drug addiction. Even if that meant selling her own daughter to grown men for support of it.”

Another essayist writes:

 “I have had a terrible life. My biological dad was in jail when my biological mother died, but he had two choices. 1. Find somebody to take care of me or 2. Put me in Foster Care.

“He decided to pick neither. Instead he tried to sell me and my other brother. My brother had some mental issues. He tried to kill me twice. Each time he had tried to drown me.”

Pilkington said although many of her students write about their own experiences, an equal number would prefer writing about more fantastical subjects. “I’ve gotten just as many that will not write about their personal life,” she said. “They want to write fiction short-stories.”

One of her students wrote of a fictitious inmate receiving a lethal injection, while others wrote about high school baseball stardom, earning their driver’s licenses and going fishing with explosives. The theme of guilt and punishment is common, even when the young writers dwell upon made-up worlds.

“As he left the scene of the crime, Victor was bawling,” begins one short story, titled “The Cry of Goodbye,” by a resident named J.F.

“He couldn’t believe his father had murdered that young boy.

“Victor had paid for the fine and the cars, but he new he could never pay for the little boy’s life. Victor had went to the little boy’s house so he could apologize to the little boy’s parents. The little boy’s parents were very happy that he had apologized.”

If You Like To Write, Or You’ve Got Something To Say, You Do It

Pilkington said she was initially surprised the CVYS administration wanted to start the program -- an idea she said was green-lit following an informal parking lot conversation.

“There are great facilities out there; there are some horrible facilities out there,“ she said. “And this happens to be one of the good ones that really cares a lot about what happens to kids.”

Pilkington said, gauging from their reactions to comments posted on her blog, her students believe they have something “worth saying” and something “that people want to know about.” During classes, she said she’s shown her students how to set up a blog, and demonstrated how she can update the site through smart phones and other mobile devices.

“If you like to write, or you’ve got something to say, you do it,” she said. “You don’t worry about what other people think about it or if just two people read it today. It’s your site.”

At the facility, Pilkington said some of her students have to write their essays using felt tip markers.

“I’m a writer myself, and I can’t imagine having to write my story on notebook paper with a magic marker,” she said.

Her students’ desire to write, even when having to resort to unconventional implements, demonstrates an emotional need to get their stories out, she believes. In some instances, Pilkington said, her students’ work is barely legible.

“We go through every single word and fix it to make it readable,” she said. “We sit there, and word for word, put a comma here, capitalize this.”

Pilkington said her intent with the blog is multifaceted, but at the end of the day, she just wants visitors to realize many of her pupils have a knack for the written word.

“I want people to read it,” she said, “and go, ‘Wow, the 15-year-old burglary suspect actually can write a decent story.’”



Swift, James. "Healing Words: Creative Writing Programs as Therapy for Kids in Detention." Weblog post. Juvenile Justice Information Exchange. JJIE, 29 Nov. 2012. Web. <http://jjie.org/healing-words-creative-writing-programs-as-therapy-for-kids-detention/99293/>.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Thoughts on The Central Park Five Documentary


The Central Park Five

Over the years, in all my education and reading there wasn't a single moment that called my attention to the The Central Park Five.  During the Spring semester of 2014, I taught a class that focused on Michelle Alexander's The New Jim Crow, Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness.  This included a digital screening of the Scottsboro Nine documentary, An American Tragedy.  During the same semester I also became aware of the Kids for Cash scheme in Pennsylvania and other issues highlighted in our research of the criminal justice system, specifically about juvenile justice.  I mention this because of the historic connection to injustice that we need to understand between The Central Park Five and the Scottsboro Nine.  As Dr. Cornel West would describe... this is Jim Crow, Jr. carrying on the work of Jim Crow, Sr.

My memory doesn't serve me well when I try to remember "when" I first heard about The Central Park Five.  At the time the media ran with the story, I was no more than 9 years old and for years the only thing I can remember about The Central Park Five growing up in the Southwest was that something bad happened in a big park... even when I visited New York in 2008, going past the park conjured up a negative feeling and stigma.  I didn't care to see anything beyond what I saw from the cab window.

Fast forward years later, browsing through Netflix I stumbled across a dark documentary cover with the words "The Central Park Five" in bold gray.  At first glance I didn't notice the details of the city of New York on one of the beams of justice with the caricatures of five central figures on the other. I didn't notice the fine print that this was a Ken Burns documentary.  As a matter of fact I didn't figure out that Ken Burns was involved until the credits at the end.  I'm a big fan of Burns work on Jazz and of course the Jack Johnson story, Unforgivable Blackness.  As I'm learning more about the film, I'm also in awe of the story behind the making of it through Ken's daughter Sarah Burns, who's work as a student brought life to its production.

Over the past couple of years, I've also listened to The Combat Jack Show.  It's a podcast archived on Soundcloud hosted by a former lawyer and Hip Hop Alumni.  On several occasions listening to the podcast I recall Combat and hosts talking about a "classic" interview with one of the members of The Central Park Five.  As Combat's program has a strong focus on the Hip Hop world, that is what triggered me to stop what I was doing and finally watch the documentary when I scrolled passed it on Netflix.  I didn't hear the interview yet but just hearing Combat mention "The Central Park Five" made me tell myself... "man, let me watch this film and see what it's all about already..."

The Central Park Five, like the Scottsboro Nine are stories we need to hold on to and pass on.  This story has everything to do with our responsibilities as students and teachers.  The lessons here go beyond the goal for closure with a relentless adversary like the city of New York.  After watching the film I've explored the net and YouTube for interviews and discussions centered around the film.  Since watching the The Central Park Five documentary I also found The Combat Jack Show with Raymond Santana and listened to it.  I'm grateful to say that this story is no longer a mystery to me.  And as I watched a YouTube video of the group discuss the film at the Harvard Law School a few years ago, I couldn't help but think about Kalief Browder who was still in Rikers at the time of the Harvard screening.

There's a lot to be said, but even more so to look forward to as we work our way through the collateral impact of The Central Park Five.  Especially as a source of inspiration and creativity to how we interact with these issues, how we learn, how we teach, how we share, and how we choose to get involved.

To learn more I highly recommend Twitter for its mobile access... There are several hashtags that will connect you to people's responses and thoughts about the film including the hashtag #TheCentralPark5.  On Twitter you can also link with the filmmakers and members of The Central Park Five, including Raymond Santana and Yusef Abdus Salaam.  

Peace.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

#TBW2015cj The Super-Predator Myth Timeline



The Super-Predator Myth Timeline click here

A timeline of student research for The Beat Within, A Compositional History of Incarcerated Writing course.   During the Fall semester of 2015, students read Nell Bernstein's Burning Down the House, The End of Juvenile Prison.  For the discussion of Chapter 5 titled 'The Rise of the Super-Predator And the Decline of the Rehabilitative Ideal' students identified news media/multimedia connected to the Super-Predator Myth.  In the course text, Bernstein states, "...high-profile researchers crossed crime stats with demographic projections to stir up fears of a coming wave of "super-predators" unlike any seen before - "more savage than salvageable," according to Princeton political science professor John Dilulio, who made his name by playing up the (supposedly) coming menace.  On October 9, 1996, a book called Body Count - co-authored by Dilulio, drug czar William J. Bennett, and think-tank director John P. Walters - hit the shelves, and America was formally introduced to our new worst nightmare: our children." (p. 72)

This timeline will document any Super-Predator Myth resources we discover off and online including links to news, video, audio, etc.  We will maintain updates to the hstry tool on Twitter.com/vbehindw hashtag #TBW2015cj.


Keywords + Tag = The Beat Within | #TBW2015cj | Burning Down the House | The End of Juvenile Prison | Nell Bernstein | superpredator | super-predator | super predator | predator | rehabilitation | juvenile justice | juvenile injustice | John Dilulio | William J. Benett | John P. Wlaters | Body Count | Ice-T | New Mexico State University | hstry | timeline | youth 

#TBW2014cj | Why Hillary Clinton Doesn't Deserve the Black Vote


Why Hillary Clinton Doesn’t Deserve the Black Vote
by Michelle Alexander, author of The New Jim Crow
The Nation: click here

From the crime bill to welfare reform,
policies Bill Clinton enacted,
and Hillary Clinton supported,
decimated black America.

For students that took part in the The Beat Within 2014 course that focused on The New Jim Crow, Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness.  Read February's Nation article by Michelle Alexander, author of The New Jim Crow click here.


Keywords + Tag = Michelle Alexander | politics | Hillary Clinton | Bill Clinton | juvenile | Black America | Black Lives Matter | mass incarceration | The Beat Within | #TBW2014cj | Jim Crow | The New Jim Crow | Jim Crow, Jr. | democrat | republican | vote | voting | voting bloc | super predator | super predator myth | superpredator | super-predator | voters | campaign | injustice | justice | deception | globalization | deindustrialization | segregation | Ricky Ray Rector | human rights | 1994 crime bill | Aid to Families with Dependent Children | poverty | Bernie Sanders | W.E.B. Du Bois | game over

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Dear The Beat Within

A powerful piece posted January 2016 on The Beat Within Facebook page facebook.com/thebeatwithin.  Visit and 'like' the page.  An inspiring message by Ruth to kick off the 20th year of The Beat Within's existence.  Since 1996. 


Dear The Beat Within

Thanks for waking up every Tuesday morning and taking your time to come to Eastlake (Central Juvenile Hall). You give us girls a different task to write about each week, we get to choose between the four topics.

It is actually a good experience for me. Every time I write it helps me let out my feelings or what is on my mind. I know I am not the only girl here to thank you guys for this.

As I see everybody write and everybody going up to read their paper (to the group), it helps me know I am not the only one with a difficult life or problems. I definitely recommend that other youth out there try this because it is not only here in Eastlake.

There are still girls out there who I am pretty sure have not picked up a pencil and wrote it all out on paper. Not just us girls, but guys too.

Once again thanks for everything you guys do. I hope you really take my advice about youth out there, remember they might need you. With much thankfulness...

-Ruth, Los Angeles


thebeatwithin.org

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Creative Justice Reading #TBW2016cj

Creative Justice Reading #TBW2016cj


#Reading Hidden Truth
Young Men Navigating Lives In and Out of Juvenile Prison
by Adam D. Reich
University of California Press

T.abloid R.ealism E.nlightening W.orldz T.roubled H.umanity

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Morales v Turman

Morales v Turman
Added to 'Cases' links on the right*
Texas Youth Council for Disobedience

"Morales v. Turman has since been heralded for establishing the first clear standards for the nation's juvenile justice apparatus.  But forty years later, incarcerated youth and their advocates are still fighting not only for an atmosphere that fosters rehabilitation but for one that merely offers some modicum of protection from chronic and vicious abuse."

Excerpt from "The Real Recidivism Problem, One Hundred Years of Reform and Relapse at the Arthur G. Dozier School for Boys" Chapter 14 of Burning Down the House, The End of Juvenile Prison by Nell Bernstein

Learn more about Morales v. Turman by visiting The University of Texas School of Law Tarlton Law Library Jamail Center for Legal Research click here

Read the letter from Mrs. Ruth Criswell to Judge Justice, September 27, 1973


Keywords + Tag = Texas Youth Council | William Wayne  | juvenile justice | justice papers | delinquency | juvenile incarceration | resource | University of Texas School of Law  | Kids for Cash | Morales v Turman | detention | Alicia Morales | Dr. James Turman | civil action | reform | University of Texas and Southern Methodist University | law | due process | Judge Justice

Sunday, November 22, 2015

#CJFinal2015 Creative Justice Final #TBW2015cj

For the Fall semester #TBW2015cj each student has five options for their final project.

Those options include the following:

Juvenile Prison History research project
#juveprisonHistory

Criminal Justice Book It Review
#cjBookit

Community Based Program Presentation
#communityProfiles

Social Media Analysis
#socialmediAnalysis

The Beat Within Publication Presentation
#TBWPublicationPrez

Below are the student selections for the #CJFinal2015:

For more information on the course please email
voicesbehindwalls@gmail.com

Monday, November 16, 2015

Discussing The Prison Public Memory Project #TBW2015cj


Discussing The Prison Public Memory Project #TBW2015cj
prisonpublicmemory.org @PrisonMemory

This semester students of #TBW2015cj participated in weekly tasks, one of which we refer to as the Social Media Summary (SMS) which focused on student/instructor Twitter activities.  September's assignment required students find and follow the Prison Public Memory Project twitter page.  Students reviewed Prison Public Memory Project website and social media, identified a resource about the project, and shared with other #TBW2015cj students in the online Discussion board.  Below are a few notes from the students:


"What I found out about the Prison Public Memory Project is that they are huge on history. They had this SoundCloud audio on Sylvia Honig, who was a former social worker in the 1960s and the 1970s. Sylvia worked in three New York juvenile prisons. Tony, the one who called all the shots, tells her that she was more of a father figure and how they saw authority in her. Therefore, the 25 girls of the program felt safe with her. It gave me the impression of a very well respected strong woman raised by her strict father. She wasn’t so sensitive as the other house moms when it came to talking about her feelings. Surprisingly, she felt that it was inappropriate to talk about feelings and issues amongst each other. Tony called a meeting talking about a program and how he wanted to leave footprints, which has now made history." #TBW2015cj Student

"What I have learned about the Prison Public Memory Project is that they are trying to use various forms of media, art, and history to honor the memories of many different types of people and communities that were involved in some way with a prison type facility that has been shut down. They believe that the memories that are housed in these facilities deserve to be known, even if they are no longer operating. Each individual that was a part of these facilities have a voice, whether they were staff or someone that was incarcerated. They seem to really want to educate the public on the histories of these facilities. They have started their pilot project in Hudson NY, their website has many interesting photographs that are pieces of art in the way they are displayed. There are also many stories from people interviewed on their site as well." #TBW2015cj Student

"What I found out about the Prison Public Memory Project is that they want to preserve the history of what took place in these prisons that are closing. Their focus is on using particular resources such as media technologies and history to help show people what the role of a prison play in both communities and society. They started in Hudson, New York because of its historic significance and the role that the prison there has played since the 1800s regarding the topics of penal reform, child welfare, juvenile justice, the role of race, gender, income, and immigrant status and how these factors come to play in crime and punishment." #TBW2015cj Student